I am back again...I have been very irregular after my marriage... as in my previous blog I wrote that I had moved to US...It was really a different experience altogether-setting up a new home, learning to cook and then cooking for gatherings, balancing work from home and work @ home, socializing, staying away from family and friends...staying away from fast food, phuchka, without domestic help, learning to do EVERYTHING on your own...I used to be overawed at sooo many things... I remember I used to write such long mails to my friends back home!!!

It was a different life altogether for me-without a mobile phone, without credit card, I couldn't go anywhere that was beyond a walkable distance...But somehow I got used to it... the same me who used to go to sleep with the mobile by the pillow, who's cell was never ever switched off!!! The same me who is a die hard shopaholic..who loves to buy things for herselfas well as others... who could not buy her husband anything more than a deodorant and a card... coz that was the only thing I could with the $10 I had with me...and that too from the local Giant store!!! For me Birthday gifts should be a surprise... I didn't like the idea of taking Amit to a store and telling him to buy something..It was frustrating for me at times... as I always take a lot of care and effort to buy gifts for my loved ones... I have never ever cared for the price...But thats the way my life was in US...doing all the household chores, guests coming over all the time..along with it came the associated planning, cooking etc...parties etc...it was strenuous...At times used to feel irritated and tired...especially remember our anniversary... was dog tired after cooking the whole day... It felt like pichle saal rani and next saal naukrani!!!! But sometimes I miss that life...Now that I am back in kolkata... I miss that independence... of doing things my way... following my own time table...I didnt feel that lonely as other wives do coz I had my work... sometimes I felt there should have been more than 24 hours a day!!! Here in kolkata one gets caught into so many things.. attending weddings, annaprashaons, bday parties etc etc... and most of them you dont even want to attend...relatives coming over or us being invited to their place... somehow I feel that there is no space for oneself...There are times I want to run away from so many formalities that I have to go through.. but cant...it is difficult here- to manage both job and home...Previously since I was working at home I could schedule things my way.. in kolkata its not possible... here things have to scheduled according to the maid's time!!!! We used to watch a DVD everyday... we had a TV but no cable connection...Its not even imaginable here.. coz we both come home late...we just get the time to channel surf during dinner.. thats it...

such is the life here.. then why are we here??? Because of our parents... We both think that it is not justified to leave them alone now...(to be contd...)